man v. woman

{note: this post is clean, no references to dirty stuff so don't take it that way}

satisfactory partner. whenever i have made out with a guy, this has been the phrase to go through my head, or that basic idea. the idea that i want to please and make it a good experience.

and the more that i consider this, the more skewed and wrong i think it is.

because i'm not a toy, correct? correct. so this got me to thinking about the relationships between girls and guys, and what do girls do in a relationship because they really do like it. because honestly what girl dresses like a skank because she feels her personal worth in a stripper costume? any girl that says she does is lying to you. sorry boys.

many girls like to feel security, and if not security then companionship. these are the simplest form of our basic desires and needs. i.e. a girl likes it when a guys hands are on her waist/hips. it is a secure position, steadying her by using his stance. a girl let's a guy treat her like a slave though because she doesn't want to be alone.

why do we let ourselves abuse our own basic needs? we confuse ourselves so much!

then there are guys. guys were born to be leaders, the strength and stamina in a sense. man and woman were created to fit like a puzzle. guys like to hold a girl, wrap their arms around her and never let her go. but then again...never let her go? to the point of controlling and then anger and possible abuse?

why is our world so messed up?

i feel like i could never really love a man and let a man love me because of all the twisted and messed up things that can come from something so beautiful. i don't want to ruin that. i'm tired of being their play piece that they use and then forget after two days and another pretty face.

and there's no way i'm going to bring children into a world with a man if those children are going to have to grow up in an even more twisted world than i have had to discover.

because i thought they loved me, every time. or at least truly cared and may come to love me

but that's a fairy tale. and i hate to break it to you but

this is reality.