things i dont say concerning { H I M } .

i never define who he is.

and i'll never tell him how much i wanted to walk up and kiss him that one time

then i'd never tell them that i know what was on that yellow paper, making fun of me

why can't i stop smiling when i hear you talk to older people?

or when you talked crap about that girl you used to date?

but i'll still never get past this wall

because you are the wall that's keeping me away

just like you keep drawing me in.

and i can't escape.

you don't even know, you don't even care

how much it makes me glow inside when you say that something i do is cute

and i wonder how you don't know


just when i think i'm free? i fall for you all over again.

and i wish that you had been the one i had let kiss me, not him.