{ T I G E R S } & { S H E E P } .

a tiger doesn't lose sleep over the opinion of sheep. ~zag

i make a fool of myself every day these days it feels like. and i'm so tired of it. it's like no matter where i go i'm a magnet for other people's derision and criticism. and i earn and deserve it every time. i do these stupid things...stupid, stupid! things.

sometimes it turns out for the best. like when i asked one guy if he still liked me basically...and he doesn't. and i was happier for it. but all of these other things...

why is life so rough right now. oh i forgot, magnet here.

is it me doing stupid things or am i doing things right and people are the stupid ones and they are all somehow mass confused about the way reality is? or should be. how come people like me can't just be honest? if i could say what i mean and whatever is on my mind...i think i would be happier. at least happier than i already am. it's confusing.

because the more i express myself the meaner people get thus the more alone i feel, but by expressing myself  i am ultimately free and happy in that. and then also when i don't express myself i can fit in more easily with the stupid sheep of this world, but i am completely alone in my silence and constrained.

you can probably tell which happy road i will always choose.

stupid sheep.
llamas are my favorite animal anyway.