alone

as long as i can remember i have always been alone.

not in the sense that there is no one else in the same room, less literal

alone in the kind of person i am. and i am.

i truly am...completely...alone.

and the hardest and saddest thing is that i am never more aware of this

than when i am with my "friends".

and back when seth and i were always together, best friends and the whole...shabang

i was happy for the first time and didn't feel alone.

but now that i have changed, even from the girl he knew

and i can never go back to being that same...innocent girl


i have lost him too.


this makes me realize that once again i am on my own

is there any hope?