have you ever thought about the places where you felt the most right? where everything seemed to be just perfect and you never wanted to leave? was it by chance in his arms, or maybe with a guitar in your hands? sometimes was it alone and sometimes in a crowd?
i don't know where my place is anymore. i feel like i'm constantly falling for someone, believing them, believing that they care about me, that i'm not a complete idiot to be doing this to myself again when i already know how this haiku ends. every love story ends, sorry to break it to you.
so maybe i just don't have a place. not that kind of place at least. no place in someone's heart forever oh-so-sappy love story perfect. i do have a place though physically where i can go. and never have i ever taken anyone there...because i don't want to contaminate it.
that sounds harsh you say? but it's true. she ruined the rooftops. he ruined haley's lookout. the walks at night became more of a chore. special places are hard to find and i gave a lot of mine up because i wanted to share that peace i had found there with them. that was a mistake, because the moment you bring someone there...they have a memory in your heart there. and once that friendship or relationship burns to the ground then so does your solitude. you will forever be crowded with the hauntings of those memories.
better to leave your special place just that. yours.
just like you should leave your heart alone, stop ripping pieces out of it and trying to give it to others who won't return a piece of theirs, or a piece of theirs that's too small or too big. that's your heart...you don't have to give it away anymore.
don't bring them to your place.
this is my place.
i don't know where my place is anymore. i feel like i'm constantly falling for someone, believing them, believing that they care about me, that i'm not a complete idiot to be doing this to myself again when i already know how this haiku ends. every love story ends, sorry to break it to you.
so maybe i just don't have a place. not that kind of place at least. no place in someone's heart forever oh-so-sappy love story perfect. i do have a place though physically where i can go. and never have i ever taken anyone there...because i don't want to contaminate it.
that sounds harsh you say? but it's true. she ruined the rooftops. he ruined haley's lookout. the walks at night became more of a chore. special places are hard to find and i gave a lot of mine up because i wanted to share that peace i had found there with them. that was a mistake, because the moment you bring someone there...they have a memory in your heart there. and once that friendship or relationship burns to the ground then so does your solitude. you will forever be crowded with the hauntings of those memories.
better to leave your special place just that. yours.
just like you should leave your heart alone, stop ripping pieces out of it and trying to give it to others who won't return a piece of theirs, or a piece of theirs that's too small or too big. that's your heart...you don't have to give it away anymore.
don't bring them to your place.
this is my place.
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