bite my tongue

you said i got sass, that i need to calm down.

and you don't even know what i'm not saying.

because half the time i bite my tongue.


and we stand there in comfortable friendship

supposedly.

but secretly as i watch you dancing around the room

and being so very cute about it

all i want to do is plant one on you right then and there


then i have to go home, and i tell myself the truth

the painful, painful truth

that he doesn't,

and never will feel the same way

and i shouldn't even want it

because he's not right for me.

at least not the light side of me.


we all have a light and dark side to ourselves,

and it's a part of life learning to "bite your tongue"


i always go back to january and wish i had let you kiss me.