you know that game, two truths and a lie? well that was my lie. i do do the jealous thing. in fact i do it all the time. it's probably one of my biggest faults. it's dumb and pointless though and i know that, even and maybe especially when i feel that way. which might only make it harder.
because i know i'm in the wrong, and i know of no way to stop the affliction.
even when he said he loved me every single night, i doubted. that's what i do. i doubt love. full of fear with no way of finding trust in those who i need to trust the most. in the past, seeing those pictures of you with her made me so frustrated. and even now, seeing him with someone else after the recent events, it's frustrating.
but of course i will always force myself to be stronger than i really am, because that is what i do. i fake it till i make it.
because i know i'm in the wrong, and i know of no way to stop the affliction.
even when he said he loved me every single night, i doubted. that's what i do. i doubt love. full of fear with no way of finding trust in those who i need to trust the most. in the past, seeing those pictures of you with her made me so frustrated. and even now, seeing him with someone else after the recent events, it's frustrating.
but of course i will always force myself to be stronger than i really am, because that is what i do. i fake it till i make it.
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